If i had a choice - which i dont because i have to do this to survive, ironically - i would take back every clip i have ever released and just disappear. What i contribute to this fetish appears to have no value whatsoever. And 16 years is a long time to take a hint. No one would miss me and no one would care, because people like me - girls like me - are just so infinitely replaceable

doing something 16 years and still being at the bottom. How would you feel?


Worthless. Unimportant. That is how I feel. And like no matter what I do it will never be good enough. 


But hey. Who fucking cares how I feel.