So I haven’t been updating lately because I have been in the hospital because I had a heart attack.
Currently recuperating and trying to somehow follow doctor’s order of “avoiding stress” while at the same time face enormous financial pressure because I’m too weak to do anything income-generating and the month is nearly half over. Which translates into being majorly screwed. Which translates into … STRESS! ta-da! Funny how that works.
The part about the doctor’s orders where I’m not supposed to smoke is not going so hot either. Because of course I am smoking. But like I said, STRESS. Also, addiction. What would YOU do? That’s what I thought.
Help to get me through this month can be sent here -> http://paypal.me/annievox - and any help is appreciated so much, you have no idea. The stress is really getting to me and I don’t want to end up in the hospital again - my arm is beyond fucked up from the IV and I was NOT one of those lucky heart patients they put on a morphine drip like in the movies. I could use a morphine drip right around now to deal with this stress. This bullshit heart thing is going on, PLUS about five other extremely stressful situations that are core existence problems and so I just might fucking keel over. I hate asking for help. But I’m asking for help, if you are able and inclined to take pity on me.
Writing all this just exhausted me. I have to rest for a little bit so I can sit back up and have a cigarette. Because being deprived of nicotine is horrible. In the hospital I had to have my friend sneak in a vape pen that was in my backpack and I would stick my face into the backpack, draw on the vape, hold it in to get that nicotine goodness, then blow it back into the backpack so the nurses wouldn’t smell the flavor (I wouldn’t have had a good answer for “Why does it smell like green apple and tobacco in here?” so face down into the backpack it was)